Today was the IT fair.

My mom bought a new laptop, and I'm using it now. I thought I'll make it a... "ritual" to kind of post when I'm using a new laptop? I mean.. Yeah. Cool stuff.

AND... The cooolest part of it is... Today is KevJumba's birthday! So... Happy birthday, KevJumba! :)
I doubt KevJumba would EVER see this, but just in case.
AHEM.
Hi.
I think your videos are awesome and I wish I could watch you film one. :)

*cough* Yes. Anyway.
I think the new laptop is totally awesome.
Mummy, I think you made an awesome choice :)

I should go now.
Byee.

-Jamie

I felt really horrid today.
So I took my ipod and phone and went jogging.
Supposedly.

Feeling rather shitty.
So. I sprinted, jogged, tried to jog, walked, strolled for a few rounds round the estate.

I went into one of the lobbies to stretch. By that time, the sky was rather dark. I felt quite scared as I walked out of the lobby to do another round. I was blasting my music while walking.

Just then, I saw this creature in front of me. It was a black and white cat with a really sharp face. I was so shocked that I just stared at it.

It then dawned on me that it looked as scared as I felt. I was so scared that it'll attack me that I quickly backed away. Its eyes were huge! The poor thing must have felt really scared. There was a dog strolling nearby as well. The dog was really big.

The poor cat was so tiny. I think it was a kitten. Now thinking back, I think it looked quite exquisite. Its eyes were really scary though.

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On another note, I am truely sorry to my friend for being so insensitive :(
I love you loads. You still love me... Right?

-Jamie

Her hair was up in a ponytail
Her favorite dress tied with a bow
Today was Daddy's Day at school
And she couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her,
That she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
If she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid;
She knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
Of why he wasn't there today.
But still her mother worried,
For her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
She tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school,
Eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees,
A dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the wall in back,
For everyone to meet
Children squirming impatently,
Anxious in their seats.

One by one the teacher called,
Each student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
As seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name,
Every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
For a man who wasn't there.

"Where's her daddy at?"
She heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one"
Another student dared to shout.
And from somewhere near the back,
She heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad,
Too busy to waste his day."

The words did not offened her,
As she smiled up at her mom.
And looked back at her teacher,
Who told her to go on.

And with hands behind her back,
Slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child,
Came words incredibly unique.

"My daddy couldn't be here,
Because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
Since this is such a special day.
And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy,
And how much he loves me so.
He loved to tell me stories
He taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
And taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes,
and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him,
I'm not standing here alone.
Cause my daddy's always with me
Even though we are apart.
I know because he told me,
He'll forever be in my heart."

With that, her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
Beneath her favorite dress.

And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,
Her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
Who was wise beyond her years.
For she stood up for the love
Of a man not in her life.

Doing what was best for her,
Doing what was right.
And when she dropped her hand back down,
Staring straight into the crowd.

She finished with a voice so soft,
But its message clear and loud.
"I love my daddy very much,
He's my shining star.
And if he could he'd be here,
But heaven's just too far.
You see he was a fireman
And died just this past year.
When airplanes hit the towers
And taught Americans to fear.

But sometimes when I close my eyes,
It's like he never went away."
And then she closes her eyes,
And saw him there that day.
And to her mother's amazement,
She witnessed with surprise.

A room full of daddies and children,
All starting to close their eyes.
Who knows what they say before them,
Who knows what they felt inside.

Perhaps for merely a second,
They saw him at her side.
"I know you're with me Daddy."
To the silence she called out.

And what happened next made believers,
Of those once filled with doubt.
Not one in that room could explain it,
For each of their eyes had been closed.

But there on the desk beside her,
Was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
And a child was blessed,
if only for a moment,
By the love of her shining bright star.

And given the gift of believing,
That heaven is never too far

- Unknown

Someone once told me that Jc life is secondary school on steriods.

I think I can finally understand what she means now.

Something is happening to me, and I just can't put my finger to it. In a strange way, I think I'm like coming out from my cocoon. I hope I can become a butterfly. Ha, metamorphosis. That's the word. It's so strange.

I feel strange.

My friends tell me that I'm weird. Rightly so, I guess. I figured I'm always a little odd in most situations.

I don't know why I post these things here.

I'm trying to sort out my thoughts but they just keep escaping me. Haha, a little like sand running through your fingers. Well, in this case, it'll be my thoughts running through my.. consciousness.

I think I'm in a dilemma. Though not really.

I fear I may be going mental.

It's like my thoughts are---

I can't---

Now I think I understand why people have this impression that blog posts are mostly about sad stuff.

Why would anyone post when they're happy? Wouldn't they rather be out there, being happy? As compared to being at home, and blogging that they're happy.

Rather, when people are sad, they tend to prefer to be in the comforts of their own home. So I think, in this case, they blog more about sad stuff.

That's my reasoning.
Maybe I'm thinking too much.

Ha, I think I do think too much.
It's burderning me.

Oh well.

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I got goosebumps hearing this song in the movie and it was one of the moments that I teared. I thought it wasn't really a cry-y show, and I tried really hard to make myself, not cry?




This song is titled, "When Will My Life Begin". I think it was the first time I teared in the movie. Yes, I teared. I don't know why.

I bought the sound track, and was listening to the CD in the car. After a while, my brother asked me this question, "Why does Rapunzel say when will her life begin? Didn't her life begin already? Isn't she living? "

I paused for a while, thinking how to answer him. I finally gave the only answer that I felt was.. suitable? I said, "Hmm. Well, I don't really know.."

Truth be told, I've had this feeling that my life hasn't really begun yet. All these years, I've just been learning the basics, and knowing where my priorities are, and who I can depend on. I guess, in some ways, I feel like a Rapunzel. Not in the sense, stuck in a tower but learning how to do things. For Rapunzel, it was sewing, painting, and brushing her hair. For me, it was studying and things of that sort. I think I've been waiting to go and see the lights, just like her.

Recently, I haven't been making much sense. I miss Israel so much. Sigh. I wanna go back again and again and again and again and again and again~~~

-Jamie

I am at Changi Airport Terminal 1! In Singapore, of course.

Hmm... Well... I'm really excited. Really.
Can't you tell my excitement seeping through these words?

I'm currently waiting for my plane! Looks like I'm about to go now.

Oh well, I'll definitely blog about my trip when I return!
And upload photos on facebook :)

I'M GOING TO ISRAEL. ISRAEL <3

I promise my cousin, that I'll post the photos up on facebook.
Just give me some time..? :P

-A very excited Jamie :)

As much as the title suggests, I'm not actually seeing life stroll by. Well, not exactly, I guess.

I'm still living in shock, that I HAVE COMPLETED MY O LEVELS. Yes, I am, still in shock. The more shocking thing is that only a week has passed since then!

Actually I think I should rename this as.. A update of the past week. Or something of that sort, but that wouldn't sound as nice, would it?

I feel it's been ages and ages since my o levels ended. Honestly, I am just... in awe? Not a good word to use. Anyway, I do remember that after my Os( as we, students, affectionately nicknamed the exam), I went out with my friends!

I shall do it in a more systematic manner.

12 Nov 2010-- Officially the end of MY Os.

13 Nov 2010--
I went out with my friends, Meiling, Joelle, Joellene, and Pan-Yin. We were out to celebrate Joelle's birthday. We then proceeded to the AFA which is my previous post. Yes.

14 Nov 2010--
I went to church :)

15 Nov 2010--
I cannot, for the life of me, recall what I did here. I think I probably spent the whole day trying to download "Audition". It's this game where people create characters and use them to dance? Well, the fun part is getting the arrows. I would suggest that you, who is reading this, play it, because... It's really fun! :)

[[Edit: As Danielle metioned, we had a horror movie marathon! We watched Paranomal Activity and Shutter! ]]

16 Nov 2010--

HECK THIS.

I'm sleepy. I can't do much when I'm sleepy. So I'll just leave this post as it is, and probably post again some other time. Yes.

-Jamie

P.S I think this is my failed attempt at trying to record down what I did during this week, so that I can actually write it in my diary. Yes, I do have a diary.

I'm leaving.

This place,
The place I know so well...


BUT I DON'T GIVE A DAMNNNN~!

AHAHAHA.

I'm so happy I'm almost insane.

Oh scratch that. I'm insane already! ;D

SEE YOU GUYS<3

I'll miss you! And don't worry.. I'll buy something for you! :D

-Jamie